Pep Diary: Days 4, 5.

Friday was Day 4.

I felt very lethargic in the morning. I took it at 7am and this time I told myself 7am and 7pm would be the times I would be consistently taking the medication. I later met with a friend and felt extremely nauseous in the car. I had also not eaten that much that day. We went for lunch and I chose options that would be alright for my stomach. I got a banana and honey smoothie which actually helped relieve my stomach pain for quite a few hours. I'm definitely getting something like that again. I took my night tablet and went grocery shopping for apple juice which I've heard is a good helper for nausea.

Saturday is Day 5.

I feel actually not so bad today. I didn't go out last night, had a decent 8 hours sleep, woke up at 7am to take my tablet and fell asleep again till 11am. I think the apple juice is really helping. I'm surprised I haven't vomited yet in the past 5 days. Even though I feel like I need to, it doesn't "come out" per se. Also I'm cautious of vomiting straight after taking the tablet as this would mean I'd miss a dose, which I don't want to do. My diet has changed dramatically, I used to solely rely on veggies and lean protein meats and now I'm eating my life away with carbs, not counting my calories, not consuming my protein shakes as I'm too weak to go to the gym first off and I normally mix it with milk. Furthermore, I'm living off salt crackers. I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow like I usually do, I'm expecting some weaknesses though. I really hope these side effects don't continue on to next week. I've been reading about the success of combivir and all the research I've found have led it to conclude that it's successful.. I also took the medication within 4 hours so that's really quick, on average people take it 33 hours after exposure. I guess I can't stop thinking WHAT IF this doesn't work, and I'll really not know what to do. But I'm staying positive and hopeful, I think it's best I see a counsellor next week. I can't help feeling like I got raped. I don't really hate myself because I know I did all the precautionary measures that I could. I more hate the person that took advantage of me, and I hate that this is not a rule embedded in the gay community. It's sickening and in my opinion practically rape.